Starting from Scratch
May 28, 2010
I’m not sure how many of you looked into my life last summer in Washington D.C., or last fall in Edinburgh–but those of you who did know that the viewing window into my world closed its blinds for a very long time.
I suppose there are many reasons for the hiatus from blog writing. My life took unexpected turns that led to a desire for isolation and removal from the public eye. I felt that a lot of personal feelings and information was being shared too openly with the unidentified reader. I saw my interests morphing; myself changing. I knew I needed time. I felt like my writing was too sporadic and random for a blog. I thought that–since it wasn’t a personal journal– I needed to have a single topic to muse over. I put pressure on myself to write creatively and poetically in every post; even when I just wanted to recount the day’s events.
I couldn’t deal with the stress that I put on myself, and quite suddenly a project that was meant to bring me joy became an overwhelming burden.
I’m going to do things differently this time. I want to fuse my two passions: writing and photography. I can’t promise how often I’ll post–and when I do post I have no idea if it will be a story, a poem, memories from the day, or just some pictures. There will be no more pressure associated with this blog. The topics will almost certainly be random, because that is how my mind works. I will definitely be sharing aspects of my life in Germany, as well as thoughts and impressions during my travels. But I may also write poems or narratives which will have no concrete origination point.
While I want to pull up the blinds again, they won’t be opened so widely. I need privacy in my life. Those who are close enough to me to know all the details will. As for the rest of my reading strangers: I am happy to share my some of my thoughts and pictures with you, and I hope you are happy to witness them.
